church,bbq and night over

church,class bbq n a night over

yest was awholelotof a sunday...stuffs were going on from morning till night...
woke up 7, met Qian Han at boonlay station to go to the city harvest church....damn sleepy but managed to wake myself up........this was the second time i went there since two years ago with Charlene and Betty..same stuff, lots of singing, praising...they got some kind of preaching and discussion on some of the bible content...no idea at all wot it was all bout...qian han showed me his bible and kinda said 'here, from line something to something' tried to read but of coz "shrugs"....got to know many ppl there, think i could not even remember all.....nice friendly ppl there..hmmm...then they all went for some kind of amazing race, didnt join them coz of the bbq..

kinda purposely went late, becoz i overslept and also the super heavy rain....supposed to reach there at 1400 but reached there at almost four, didnt regret coz nothing much to do oso....
surprised to see Vincent there, he like kinda 'poop' appeared....sad lar, he had to come back from Aussie for two whole years for ns..wah sooo sucky ah,haiz... aniwae, the bbq was a..eee...failure, the fire was too small, couldnt even cook one piece of chicken wing...so decided to bring all the food back into kei's house n used the microwave instead..the food was brought up n down several times...then some of us went into kei's room, switched off lights and told ghost stories, it was kinda failed..haiz, come on..by our age, wot kind of ghost stories we have not heard b4...

then ended up only me n serene stayed overnight, planned not to sleep but have movie marathon..serene rent this jap horror show coz she was obsessed bout tis kinda show...the show was okay,not understandable as usual as any other korean or jap horror show, sooooo i fell asleep halfway, then kei then seene followed thereafter n when the show was over we.....eeee....continued sleeping...so there goes our plan........again

daredevil

wo hoooooooooo.............

read the magazine just know, one of the article was toking bout something to do with terrorism....the writer says that s'poreans who go to places like southern thailand, jakarta, bali, ny are called the "extreme traveller", like they are so daring to go to such dangerous place, then the writer adds on..how bout those ppl who live in those places? wot? they are "extreme resident" ah?? i am from jakarta and living there, so iam "extreme resident" right? cool ah, sounds like resident evil or something....woa didnt know i can be so...wot ah? brave? daredevil? dunno lar....juz crapping as usual....

finally....freeeeeee

finally.......freeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got my last A level paper today, at 0915 today, i am officially free..................no need to wear the grey uniform anymore.....dun dare to say no need to touch the notes anymore though, scared if next year i found out that i dun make it, dun wanna jinx it......
went to tampines mall to eat seoul garden buffet with the usual peeps, kinda a celebration after the finally ended exams...ate like three rounds, stayed there for like three hours, or is it more than that? farah cooked the supposedly omelet and fried rice using the bbq pan there, so weird man, nv know you can do that there, first time seeing somebody doing that...her omelet quite nice...but kei n me dun dare to eat her inedible looking fried rice....
dunno why i dun feel the same "set free" feeling and enthusiasm that i felt on the last day of my o level exams two years ago, i feel nothing much actually.....the thought of the end of As was really great during the exam period, but when the day actually came, i dun feel it, so sad, i was expecting this great feeling, but i dun get it........i dun feel the "closure".....
i am now more of feeling lost, what should i do next....even for tomolo, no idea man....if i am not going back indo, i will immediately find job...can i not go back? nah, feel bad....
got a list of stuffs i planned to do after the As but feel that now is not the appropriate time yet...dunno why....again.....

his blog is gone

sian....

haaaaaaaaaaaaaa..today the day feel sooooo long, maybe coz only had a 1.5 hour exam in the morning, came home early then dunno wot to do........
juz realise today that his blog is shut not functioning, ooh, i mean tomato's...haiz sad lar, y y?? but on the other it makes no diff he nv update anyway, only put up something like wot, once every four months??? but he got lots of pic, hope kei has uploaded them into her com and she can get on with fbi files..haha so fun..crap lar....

thank's....

thank's......

i have made a pact with Him, if whatever happens now is what it takes to make all things alright like the way it is now, if it is His will that things are the way it is now, i really could not ask for more...........................

another paper gone....

another paper gone...

juz had my maths paper 2, like shit man!!!!!
didnt know that siu2 actually read my blog, the one about indo vs singapore.....
tot that entry is kinda long and draggy but dunno why i juz feel lile writting about it lar.....
agree with her that the linkin park and jayZ remix is crap, downgrade linkin park only...haha supposed to be studying now, but so xian, juz now after school went to lido had lunch with farah planned to study together but ended up talking cock so decided to go home....now i am at home lar..in the middle of studying chem, but then again what am i doing here now,man! got to really start work again, but think i will get back to my com after like...twenty minutes later???? really have no will power man....

singapore..

s'pore....

dunno why when i am studying time passes so slowly but when i am taking break like now, play com or stone or something time speeds....hell, got 10 min more then muz get back to mugging, dunno got use or not mug so much, sad lar..
the date is set , 29th i am going back, every time i need to go back, i feel a bit 'haaaah' but when time to get back here i feel even more 'haaaah' dunno why...not becoz i dun like the place, but once i xi guan to one place i dun wan to move around...dunno why if iam here i will think back bout indo sometimes but when i am at the other side i wont think back bout here...not that i like indo more lar, juz dunno why, not that i dun like s'pore, no,no.....
s'pore is really a nice place, the citizens always complain here complain there, me too lar, but really, s'pore is very good, the ppl should not ask for too much, much better place than any other place that i know........................

• -s'pore is safe, ppl here dun have to be wary of the ppl on the road, dun need to look out for their pocket or bags or hp, feel safe when they step out of the house, not like indo, go out must open eyes big big and muz ti xin diao dan
• can take public transport with a feeling of security, take taxi no need scared driver drive u to somewhere else to be robbed or killed, driver wont anyhow charge very high, take bus dun need to worry somebody with knife come from your back to threaten you to give your money, no traffic jam so no need to be scared of some bad ppl knock your car window or pat you from the back of your motobike to rob you.. AGAIN..., mrt and buses here superb man!!!
• step out of house dun need to receive that 'look', feel it even more after the '98 riot, paranoid maybe....
• dun need to be scared of the vehicles coz all drivers here very guai always follow rules...
• dun need to feel so xin suan see sad beggars on the road, s'pore got very little. indo got a lot although most are cheats
• sick ppl here got help, just see how many charity show they have in 1 year, children foundation lar, cancer fundation lar, kidney foundation lar, heart foundation lar, wot later got stomach ah ,liver ah, intestine ah, dunno lar, coming out with more and more, in indo no money then go hell lar...
• no need to have flood so no need to walk on the street with half of your leg or body submerged in brown murky water full of dead cockroaches, rats, rubbish and dunno wot else lar....
• dun need to hear..oh got bomb here got riot there...
• even the air, waaah air is here is sooo odourless, so normal, much cleaner,in indo, you muz pray hard so that you will not kena lung cancer, i breathe in co lar, nitrogen dioxide lar,dust lar dunno what else.....especially if u r living in jakarta, if u come from kampong then ok lar
• walk on the road no need to be scared of falling into holes, longkang, k lar mybe not so bad but around my house is like that..

shit, exceed 10 min liao...so s'pore is nice place,yah...just to complement lar, not that i lurvee this place lar....

things to do

things to do after i'm free:

- go cut hair..ppl say very messy, unkempt....ugly, lao tu
- go get somemore piercings on my ears...cool mah, but very scared
- go get job...anything as long as money comes into my pocket
- go and learn one new language..kei said sign language, dunno lar..
- go holiday or tour with frenz...dunno got time or not..backpacking? so crappy
- go learn one musical insrument, or at least know something bout music lar
- go get contact lens...but very ex, very scared also
- go gym to get nice abs, but no money and a bit unrealistic
- go and borrow one chinese story book, try to revive my chinese
- go east coast or pasir ris or indo and force dev or felix to teach me how to cycle
- go to swimming pool and force her again to teach me how to swim properly
- go back indo n try to be more useful , more involved in the shop,learn stuff coz i feel so useless
- go learn how to cook..but only the things that i like to eat coz buying from outside is ex
- go park every morning at 6 with mother n her mama-san group to jog, adopt healthy liestyle,
been trying that since looooong time ago but fail every time
- go and get my license in indo, need it
- still adding on...............................................

haiz.....

haiz...

the main papers are just over, yay, but still depressing lar, next year dun dare take result,i am out of luck now,but nv mind....main goal is to survive till 25 nov....just thinking of it makes me smile...going back indo soon, but dunno why sudd dun feel like going back...
there is nothing much to do...indo got the habit of jumbling up holiday lar...two weeks for hari raya then back to work for one week then holiday for christmas and new year...so crappy, no shops open, no public transport, dun even have michael as chaffeur anymore,coz most prob he is going for holiday, he also found himself a galfren so he wont give a damn about us anymore....think i better get my license so that at least i can get around in indo ,so that i dun need to take public transport n get into somekind of mishap...but then think again, i am too slow and stupid to be able to survive driving in the traffic there...

crossing finger

xxxxx.........

i hope iam feeling what siu2 is feeling now, just go n read her blog man, she is sooo +ve..... how to feel that way, i am feeling kinda the opp now, i am hoping that the spinning tingy will be completely over, it's getting much better now, hoping.............................
i am feeling wot kei is feeling, sick, tired, sick ,tired, sick ,tired, not really becoz of the tests, or is it...i am just feeling like this now......i think more becoz of the spinning tingy that has been around for one week, buuut, it's getting better..yup.....' imbalance' syndrome after flu, whatever lar, hope it just goes away...like tomorrow....
rite now, i only want 3 things: for the imbalance tingy to be over, then for test to be over(less than one month more but why like forever...), then go back indo....dunno why i miss it suddenly....